If you’re a long-time reader of the blog, if you know me or if we have worked together in the past, you know that I’ve come a long way in my journey to health. I’ve gone from near-constant exhaustion (though I was good at faking high energy) to working out almost every single day. Even when I’m on vacation, I make time to find a gym, exercise and keep up with my workouts. I enjoy being healthy.
Now that wedding season is in full swing and I’ve started a new business, I’ve found time more elusive than ever. With weddings most weekends, sometimes two in a weekend, I have to admit that my workouts have taken a nosedive. On top of that, without the same regularity in my workouts, it’s easy to tell myself that one little visit to McDonald’s for french fries won’t hurt anything.
Right now, I’m working out about half as much as I had been, or three days per week. I can feel my body losing muscle and my waistline getting a little looser. These are subtle differences, mind you, but I’ve become attuned to by body and I know when it’s changing. It’s hard not to get down on myself for skipping the gym.
It’s Really OK
I constantly think I need to go to the gym, but what I really need to do is relax and stop stressing about working out. I understand that I’m not eating as healthy as I should. That doesn’t mean that I’m not healthy or that I don’t care about my health. While I’m bothered, I need to learn to be less critical of myself when part of me is saying fewer workouts is fine and the other part is self-sabotaging.
What I’m trying to teach (or remind) myself is that it’s OK not to visit the gym six times per week. It really is. Weddings, like almost every business, have an off-season, and that’s how I need to think about fitness. This period of less activity isn’t going to last forever. Exercise is good for my mind, body and soul and I will get back to it.
Self love is internal before it’s external. I don’t work out to look a certain way or to be someone I’m not. I exercise to preserve my health for tomorrow, and the next day . . .
So what if I have an off season with my diet and exercise? I’m still shooting images of amazing people having the best days of their lives. I have the opportunity to share in people’s excitement and document their stories. Even better? I get to help make the world a better place with my new business. I’m giving a little in terms of fitness, but I’m allowing myself to be a part of something bigger. As long as I’m healthy — I think I’m OK with that.